In some ways it's hard to believe that today is the last day of 2014. In other ways, I feel like we should be ringing in 2016 tonight! The days are slow. The waiting is hard. The transitions are daunting. But through every minute of every day, we know that God is faithful and we have peace that we are following in what He has for us.
Since 2010 I've been in a constant state of uncertainty, transition, and/or change. Jason and I began dating toward the end of 2010, then I graduated from college and had to find a job in 2011. In 2012 we got engaged and then married. In 2013 we bought our first home and began the adoption process. When we began 2014, I thought that it would be my first year in a while without the craziness, but in some ways, I think 2014 was the biggest year yet.
Jason and I both began new jobs which were big career moves for both of us. We also completed our home study, submitted our dossier, and got on the waiting list for our adoption, and of course we added our precious pup Swanson to our family. Throughout this year God has taught me more about His heart for people than ever before. I hope and pray that this year has produced a more loving, compassionate couple both toward each other and the people the we encounter every day.
Tonight the ball will drop, the new year will ring in, and we'll all celebrate a fresh start. In some ways I'm very much looking forward to the newness, but in other ways I am okay with just staying right here. I know where here is. I know what here feels like. I don't know what 2015 has in store, and in many ways I know that what lays ahead could be more painful than anything we've ever experienced. But I remind myself that I am the clay, and I have the most loving Potter.
In the spirit of fresh starts, I've come up with a list of things I want to do or do more in 2015.
2015 Goals/Resolutions/Things I want to do:
- Read the bible in 1 year using the Bible for Life plan
- Go to the gym 3 days per week
- Eat dinner at home more - at least 4 nights a week
- Read 12 books - at least 1 per month
- Pray with Jason more
- Ride 365 miles on my bike (or more!)
- Complete the Whole30 at least once
- Get to know more of our neighbors
- Travel with Jason more on his work trips
- Take advantage of the morning hours
- Take Swanson for more walks
- Entertain more at our house
- Be more intentional with giving to others
- Live more simply
- Love harder
What do you want to do this year? Where do you want to be 365 days from now?
I pray that the Lord grants me another year of life to achieve these things, for my good and His glory!
Happy New Year!