I'm not even finished with this book, yet I feel an overwhelming need to recommend it to anyone and everyone I know. I just finished chapter six, which is concerning the Lord's Prayer.
Angie (we're on a first name basis now...j/k...I wish) had me from the beginning of the book. In the introduction she says,
I was hooked. I felt like she was reading my journal.
It's taken me a bit to read it...with starting a new job and everything...but I also just don't want it to end. I'll read a few pages at a time, and then go back and read the chapter in its entirety. I honestly feel like with each turn of the page, this woman is putting into words all of the random thoughts that I fail to organize in my head.
That feeling has led me to believe that the things that I internalize and struggle with secretly are actually things that women (and men) struggle with consistently.
What I wanted to share with you today is what Angie says about a saying that I have despised for many many years. Even before I really became a believer, I couldn't stand it. I guess God gave me grace to discern fiction, even before I surrendered my heart to Him.
I've never written about this time in my life on the blog before...and I may never do so. But today, I'll very vaguely allude to it. When I was in college, my family went through an insanely difficult time. The Lord carried us through, and ultimately, that is what led me to Him, so I'm thankful for it. But, the occurrences of those few years were very public, and there were many dark days when we, as a family, longed to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I remember hearing the words, "God will never give you more than you can handle," so many times over those few years. It made me want to scream. I know deep down that the folks that offered those words were trying to be encouraging, but even as a nonbeliever, I know that it wasn't truth. This WAS more than I could handle. I couldn't handle it. I was spent. So was my family. It was more than humanly possible to handle. But held fast to the truth that God is sovereign over all things. He is/was/always will be in control of all circumstances...even when we feel like we're crumbling.
I've never been able to put my finger exactly one why that saying upset me so much. I remember snapping at friends sometimes when they would say that. Through my gritted teeth, I was able to conjure up a somewhat chipper, "Yes, He does give us more than we can handle. It's so we learn how to rely on Him," but even that explanation never seemed to do my distaste for that saying any justice.
Then, I read chapter six.
I apologize for how long this is. I'm basically giving you an excerpt of the book.
She did it. She put it into words I've never been able to muster up.
I could probably go on and on, but I won't. I'll spare you.
But let me just say one thing: I am thankful for the ministry of Angie Smith. This book has been so encouraging to me over the last few weeks. She just says things how they are, and it leaves me laughing, crying, and just in awe of our Maker.
So go buy her book. You won't regret it, I promise.
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